Feels like this project should just stop.

Posted by carles | February 24, 2015 | 51 Comments

Feels like it is ‘not worth it to try’
[via social media youth culture] will not ’embrace’ and ‘scale’ this project
[via organic discussion]
It is ‘sad’ that I even ‘try’

Am I ‘trying too hard’ to ‘be a thing’?
I thought I Was just internet publishing content.
I’m not even ‘blasting it out’ [via social media] in2 people’s faces
U know what I mean? Like I’m srsly just alone in this corner where I am doing my own thing

Auth is just so forced.

Even on this website
that I don’t tweet/fb share to any1
ppl are ‘coming 4 me’
Telling me it is pointless.

Even ‘scalable‘ is trying to b ‘scalable’
I guess eventually the whole world will h8 scalabilitie
and I guess it is starting here?
Do u believe that or something?

Eventually the whole world will listen 2
‘failed2scale-wave’ indie?
It’s all just gonna go mainstream?

There’s no point anyways.
Even if this is ‘successful’, it will just be ‘exploited’ and turned in2 a new popular aesthetic.

Sorry for posting too much.
I thought 1x per day was sorta ‘chill’
But I guess it is just too much
People don’t want this content.

Guess it is all just ‘trying too hard’
I thought coolness was having courage 2 do what is right
and I thought I was doing right by u
But I’m just a failure

I thought I could escape from social media
where your message is reduced
and build my own ‘safe’ platform
but I nvr do n e thing right.

Fuck.

Today I rlly feel like Nothing Matters.

Thank you for the emails. I enjoy hearing your stories. Let me know if u feel like this is still a good idea, or if it is like ‘sad’/pathetic for me to keep going/publishing content. I just thought it was fun and I was hanging with a few bros, but I guess I am ‘trying too hard’ to ‘make this a thing.’

Sorry again for ‘not being a scalable voice’ that resonates with you in all of the ways that u need. U deserve better.

I wish nothing but the best 4 u.

Previous auth p0sts

I just want 2 connect with real ppl.

I feel lost.

Related topix: Building the Auth Community, Carles

Read more blogs abt How 2 Deal With Life

H.D. Broreau

really think you should just email all this [via ‘the limbaugh letter’]
Besty Guru

really wish we could meet irl and hug out our issues
Bronello_Cucinelli

i wouldn’t put too much stock in the opinion of someone with the username “ineedahipsterbf”, carles
- Fred
  
  also has a pic of cat instead of selfie
  girls never do that unless they rlly ugly
- brennan bro
  
  https://twitter.com/ineedahipsterbf/status/567535276671909889
  
  this is what ineedahipsterbf still looks like with a ton of make-up…
  fhl
  - Youth Group Bro
    
    0/10 would not bang, bro.
    - agent dale cooper
      
      don’t think it’s chill to blast her photo on here/talk about her in objectifying ways
      - Besty Guru
        
        Kinda picking up on some slambook-wave vibes that could ruin this girl’s self esteem. Kinda like the time I got a dry hj in high school and bragged to every1 and then the girl got mad and slammed me by letting every1 know that I have a below average peen. Kinda feel bad for Rachel.
        
        <3 u Carles
      - https://twitter.com/theericlarson Obscure Cactus
        
        how big is yr peen bro
      - Youth Group Bro
        
        0/10 would not bang you (via taking a joke about a public twitter profile too seriously)
      - BLEH
        
        brb objectifying u and there’s nothing u can do abt it
chillaxinbruh420

NO! You can’t stop now! You’re on a roll! Really digging the #content you’ve been providing lately. Screw those #haters. Do your thang and ignore their bad #vibes. You’re an inspiration. Your presence is a gift to the world. You’re unique and one of a kind. Stay street, stay legend and most importantly stay #auth, bb. You’re awesome for realsies.
https://twitter.com/theericlarson Obscure Cactus

lmao at that idiot who said ‘driving a 2008 toyota corolla seems auth’

it was fucking recalled
- Tonytwoballs
  
  If you’re a true auth you wouldn’t even know.
- HOMOSAPIEN_FUCK
  
  I’ll punch your lights out
Tonytwoballs

What would the comedown from a burst auth-bubble be like? How would a post-auth feel about their time spent authing out? “Oh man, remember when we used to not give in to falsely championed imaginary social constructs and were realistic about the significance of our own arbitrary cultural experience? We were so lame.”

So just because you created/put a name to the sentiment of rebellion away from corporate sponsored and tracked personal branding you’re trying too hard?

Keep doing what your doing carles, and don’t worry, it’ll auth be ok.
- carles #1 fan
  
  underrated post
  - Tonytwoballs
    
    Thanks, not everything is meant to scale I guess.
Youth Group Bro

I wouldn’t worry too much Carles, really you should keep posting because you enjoy it, not for anyone else. For my part I still enjoy reading this blog. I’ve said before though that I’m not really with you on the concept of auth. To me it’s just a more obscure corner of indie full of bands who would scale hard if they had the opportunity via human nature. I think we should move beyond trying to create an exclusive cultural space and imbue it with meaning it doesn’t really have, otherwise we’ll just watch auth “fail” like indie did.
carles #1 fan

Listen:

Fuck Sierra
- carles #1 fan
  
  Sorry Sierra
  
  You seem chill
  
  Just see how Carles gets like
  
  Be nice to him because see how he gets like
- Sierra
  
  lol it’s not my fault carles is getting all emo
carles #1 fan

I need your posts

In ways that are hard to articulate,

The moar Carles is posting

The better my life is

I have too much social anxiety to email you

Please Carles don’t abandon us

You may say I’m a dreamer

But I’m not the only one
stewart

Don’t stop
Dave

carles is forever. carles is eternal. carles is saviour of the #auth ppls
- thoroughauthbrah
  
  Soylent Auth is made out of people.
cool dad in training

i’m not what anyone would term in a ‘regular internet.com commenter.’ i don’t ‘troll forums’ or comment on recaps of ‘television shows.’ i’m just a reg bro that so values the story you told that i’m commenting on these articles to continue to share in that voice that you brought that was pretty ‘formative’ for how i consume the enormous amount of ‘shitty media’ that has overrun us on all fronts. feel like just in this short time, the small community that you wanted was already forming here in the comments section. you’re right, nothing matters, but that doesn’t absolve you of the responsibility to ‘fucking try’. so grow up and keep ‘fucking trying.’ we’re ‘stuck here’ so we might as well be ‘stuck here’ as a community. this isn’t some garden state wave interpretation of life. not asking u to yell at the infinite abyss (miss u nat ports. nice headphones bb).

let’s just have little moments here.
BLEH

real talk: I’ve really been enjoying your posts on here. srsly don’t think i’ve ‘connected’ (wrong word but whatever) with a blog as much between the end of HRO and when I started reading this. It’d be a massive shame if you stopped writing as no one really comes close to what you do (and it is painfully evident when they are tryin to emulate u). Obviously do what u want but don’t quit because of some tards on twitter

safe
dat_bro06

This whole Carles.buzz thing reminds me (via memories) of the time I had a fling w/ a girl in college — things cooled off b4 graduation, but we had a fantastic one-night stand in a major city of cultural importance on the Eastern Seaboard several years later (via cliches), but it didn’t last

Ne ways, just waiting for Carles to hurt me again
HOMOSAPIEN_FUCK

welcome to the school of hardknocks baby. where sometimes you punch..and somtimes you get punched..hard.
- A. G. KUSH
  
  yo great points in the comments in the article, bro
http://thebeeobee.com/ thebeeobee

calres can you do an article for grantland about the most auth nba players/ i’ll post it on my dad’s facebook wall for pageview$$$
AFR-auth

Dude I emailed you with the subject “your doing fine” pretty sure like that too with you’re misspelled. I can’t talk like you guys do on this site, I’m new, but dude… you’ve got all of these people emulating and hating you and talking about you even though you don’t put it out there that much. You’re still relevant and even if you weren’t….. dude nothing matters, so just do what’s fun. I’d like to see the readership on their blogs.
carles #1 fan

“I guess eventually the whole world will h8 scalabilitie
and I guess it is starting here?
Do u believe that or something?”

damn
Jonathan

Don’t be discouraged. Keep going
Sierra

can’t believe i’m featured on a carles.buzz post! the 16 year-old me would’ve been soooo happie. lol u know i love u carles. don’t leave us. i never meant to say those things. it’s my borderline disorder speaking. let’s b friends <3
- Sierra
  
  btw carles u should stop with ur emo antics bc that stopped being kewl n auth over a decade ago
  was it ever kewl to be emo? can’t remember.
  also ur threats to leave us are massively overplayed as well.
  so don’t be ‘sad’.
  ‘sad’ is sooo 2k4.
  ‘indifferent’ is the new ‘sad’.
  - Ghost of Sierra’s greatgrandfa
    
    Just shut up Sierra no one even likes you
    - Sierra
      
      so the feeling is mutual, i suppose
      
      hey grandpa! miss u <3
      - p4kconvoratebot
        
        Solid convo. 6.8/10
G.T

keep it up man. it feels like nobody cares because you’re fighting against mass sharing/commenting/reblogging by not doing any of those things. their voices might be louder but your message is still true.
personf4+f5+f6ing

i don’t think carles is “trying” i think carles is “being” and that the ppl who can b w/ carles at the same time that carles “b”s works nicely and that is how i see this project everyone just “being” and it is nice and i hope carles understands and here is something 4 u bc emily just freaked out a little inside earlier ~7 mins ago (i wanted 2 transfer digital warmth 2 u
via “pencil” via ms paint
it is 7am and i do not kno y i am uP
but here is my digi-luv from digi-gurl+digi-wurl 4 digi-carles
(i think that mayb 2 b a person of the “auth” quality is 2 b in the “moment” and s0 in the future this blog may b dif by how it is viewed/seen, but rn, in the moment, as it is created/shared evrydy by its creator(youououOU!!!!! yayayayay) and the ppls following it us (usUUSUSUUS<333) bc we CARERERE <33 321 32312 31))) makes the wh0l3 connection of blog+you+us an "auth" thing bc it is in the m0m3nt if u g3t m3?) 1dkm8but1b3l13v31nU & support w/e you decide 2 d0 as l0ng as carl3s is 0kay w/ it

-girlygirlgirlininternetworldw0rldw0rld:-)
CarlesReturnWasProphecyFulfill

DON’T STOP, C2RL35!!! <3 <3 <3
JacquiChan

Eff the h8ers bb. #praying 4 carles
peeeeej

yeah bro let’s keep this up u gotta just take the advice of the ppl who are all “eff the h8rs” and just “go” for “it”
Christopher

Dont trust new who ‘needsahipsterbf’ bb.

hipster isn’t very auth

seems like a tween pseudo-insult / go to buzzword for something they aren’t comfortable with

but also a cool word for a ‘style’ of ‘cute boy’ via levi 510 / 511 skinnies

don’t listen to them Carles.

Be urself

be auth

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Guest

omg. u quoted me! i feel so #auth! <3 u bb.
DotP

whoa. u quoted me. i am s0 #scalable! <3 u bb.
HollyBroLightly

keep ur chin up carles…end of the day, h8trs gunna h8 h8 h8 h8 h8 [via tay tay swiftboaters for truth]
Susie the Bro

dunno Carles,
you seem EVIL. [ is evilness even scalable? ]
you seem like a very angry ol papa. I feel bad for you.
I think you just want make other people to feel upset too. It is not cool. It is very unchill.
some very evil waves going on here.
Why don’t you just stop giving a fuck about www and other ppl waves? what’s so important about it?
Why are you trying so hard to criticize everything ? maybe you feel like some kind of deeep philosopher, the web version of Slavoj Žižek or something?

dunno Carles,
I get those EVIL_WAVES everytime I open carles.buzz. or is it just my reflection?
maybe I am too happy and satisfied with my life as it is and you are like Curt Kobain 1.1 ?
maybe.
anyways… stop worrying, go out, get the sun.

EVIL_WAVES
- carles #1 fan
  
  “I get those EVIL_WAVES everytime I open carles.buzz. or is it just my reflection?”
  
  I have literally asked myself this same question tbh fam